Where has a year gone?

Crazy as this may sound, I couldn't blog one more thing.
My life was getting so crazy that I was just wanting to
write mean and nasty things...
Sometimes at night, I can lay in bed for hours and think
about so many fun and wonderful things that I would like
to share...but morning comes all to quickly and routines
start...and the nasty thoughts come right along with it.

In a year, I have went thru a really difficult and almost
unbearable at times, child support legal battle...I would never wish
this on my worst of worst enemies. Not so fun when you
are left to pick up all the shattered pieces for you
beautiful children.... Trying oh so hard to keep any
fragments of a relationship that the boys and their father
may have in tact.

They are growing up so fast that I so feel like i am consumed
with doing motherly duties for example: 1. Making sure they
make decent..no not always right but, just decent choices.
2. No drugs of any sort.... so ridiculous how easy they are
to come by these days... 3.Respecting me, in all my screw ups
in dealing with them in the best way I'm learning how to do.
I wish for them to have so much fun....I want them to have happy
memories of growing up...playing and laughing with them...
all so often its the crying and serious conversations that
I find us having...

On a lighter note I did allow chacho the oldest child to get
his ears pierced....I have to admit.... I really think it looks
nice...
Not for sure how I feel about it...but, he wanted a tattoo
as well, so we...lets just say we settled...Bubbie, watched
as the gun would not release the earring once it was pierced,
Yep, pretty sure I wont be going with him anytime soon to
get some sweet "ice" for his ear bobs. Meanwhile the two hole
ear wonder thinks he is pretty studly.

Baby girl is so much a blessing...I'm not sure where I would
be without her.... She brings so many smiles to all our faces.
I think she has saved us this last year...She is that innocent
face that looks back at you ....that's like "what I do want the
third sippy cup of chocolate milk alright" So that day we brush
extra long...

In my year long escape from the blogging world so much could
have, should have and did happen that I wish I could fix, change
and even delete... but, as we know life goes on...
We make of it what we want...we get out of life what we put in
and not a bit more....so I kissed baby girl night night "one more
time mommy" ...and I'm still here deep breath in....Tomorrow, I
will have a fabulous day ...I will get to the Jr high for
bubbie to have a look around at his new home for two years....
I will be excited on Friday to go with bubbie to pick up his
football gear....and yes...I will tailgate at a Jr high game
no matter what he thinks...why? because I can!!!

Family pictures

We Finally did it we had pictures made.
My boys are so grown up and handsome even
if I do say so myself....

Life is good. I cant really complain to
much with what's been going on in our world.
School is out and now were in summer school.

I need a vacation and I just had one...so maybe
things are a bit more rough than I care to talk about.

Work is crazy good.... I have been very busy love
the move I think its a perfect fit.

Florida time with freinds.

The first picture is the view from our room.... It must have been
rough huh?

The second is on the beach and we are living it up... Lovin that sun.

Third is Terry telling me the rules of the weekend at Spfd's airport.
Notice how much I am paying attention.

It did my body good to get away and just relax... Yes I missed my babies
but, it was good very good.

Happy Easter Everyone

I just thought I would share a picture of all my baby's.

Boys update

Well, we made it through the day.
Trevin's spot did not bother the Dr.
Sayer's however did and he had to have
his biopsied.
We will know more in a couple of weeks.
So for now that's all I know.
I took the boys to a different Dr this
time and I really liked him and boy was
he checking them out..in their hair and
in between their toes....Did my Dr do
that nope.....
So I feel like I made a good choice to
take them else were.

Catch up bloggin

I'm not so sure what to say these days. I have said so little because
I really feel like I ramble on with things that are just in my
head and they really don't make alot of sense.
Tomorrow is the day that I take the boys to the doctor.
I have really tried not to think about it to much.....
Not working at all by the way.
Positive thinking right.
Its totally different since its them and not me...I would do
it over and over again to not have them go through any
of this. I just keep telling them I'm old and look how good
I did.....I went back to work in three days....
Trevin always the witty one says.....MOOOOM you have a shark bite.
Who taught them how to be so sassy...

So tomorrow they will take biopsy's of both boys skin
spot's.
It's a horible feeling, out of my motherly control. I never
ever want these babies to hurt. Do we ever?
I wish so much that I was just going to work in the morning
and not doing this.
It's going to be fine....right?
I have to wonder alot these days what is it that we are
suppose to learn from all of these trials....just not so sure.
I guess we may never know what the lesson's are.

On a happy note I made Easter stuff today....I so love
this holiday...its one of my favorite's .....I know I always
say that.

We were going to go camping this weekend and have
a Easter egg hunt at the lake....
We have since watched the weather forecast and that's
not going to happen..
There's no reason I can come up with that makes me
want to freeze to death...and with the baby no way.
Another day....

I have great friends by the way I really do...
Going to Florida in a few weeks cant wait....
SOOOOOO ready to hang out on the beach the
swimsuit not so ready..
Maybe even twice....no way I am pinching myself...

OH yes we are down to two puppies.....Chocolate and yellow
ANYONE!!!!!!!!!

I will update as soon as we know anything. That's a promise.



Spring Creek is calling our name's we can make it a mother
daughter and whoever else want's to come.
Steph come on sister we have to at least meet in person
befor we take off and fly together..... Florida will never
ever be the same....Like we may even have to get t-shirts.

ya hoo its monday, what what!

Ya its Monday ....what what did I say that? Yes, I did I am totally
exhausted from running kiddos everywhere. I remember the days
when I just had to worry about taking care of myself....now I'm
lucky if I can shave both legs.... No kidding!

Things are good around here just crazy busy. Soccer in Kansas City.
By the way I am in love with overland Park....You have to be kidding
so much shopping in one place.
The house's are beautifully landscaped in March looks like its CA.

Addy is getting so big I have been trying my best to get some good
pictures but the little booger will not sit still long enough to get good
ones ...action shots are always what I end up with and not good ones.

Lets see my leg is healing up nicely its been 4 weeks now.. Every test
has come back clean...
The boys go April the 8Th....Its going to be fine.. i just know it is..

I'm in a bad winter funk however... I need sunshine. I cant seem to
pull myself into a happy place... I know I'm not alone either. Its just
the time of year.

I also just remembered I need to call a few girls and get a girly weekend
on the calender......Sorry I kinda forgot to call you back....Wow like that wouldn't
take care of my funk...
I also need to play in dirt and plant some pretty flowers.
Hubby has been fishing ALOT lately hes in a happy place now its my
turn!