No complaining today!

I have already said I no longer look at my life the
same way as I once did. I no longer find myself
complaining about the small stuff. I love the small
stuff now. I choose to be optimistic about circumstances
that normally I would feel were doomed.
My children are a blessing every single second. I was
thinking about how upset I was with Trevin just last
week. I delt with that situation so differently. I want
him to be a better person after he has been taught
what he did wrong. But, that we all make mistakes.


I have been through some really crazy things
most self induced. You really cant get on a pity
party for yourself when you did it. I went sooooooo
many wrong directions. With that being
said.... I wouldn't change a thing. I have a story now
and all the girls that I had when I was a foster mom
I could relate. I love those girls... all of them are so
special and I only hope I was able to share enough of
my life to make a difference.

I cant even begin to complain about anything that I GET to
go through these days.
Even the worst of days with mouthy children at least
I have them.

I have decided that if I need to feel closer to God
just log on and start reading.
These women are unreal. With their steadfast Godly
views...

I almost feel silly writing about my daily activities now.
I am vastly aware
of things that just don't happen.
I have always said things happen for a reason now I
am even more convinced.

The people that are sent to me, and all the ones I have
contact with.. they are so special to me.
The friends that I have made throughout the years
are so priceless to me now.
My family I just keep kissing them
over and over again.
My poor boys are getting irritated with all the
chap stick and lip gloss they have to wipe off.
They see me coming and just pucker up now!
Seems to even be a little more enthusiastic at times.

Christmas even looks so much more exciting I cant
wait to share another holiday with my family.
Its never been about the gifts for me. Saying that, I
have been guilty of stressing out because I should have
purchased just one more anything for the boys.
I no longer feel that way. I want so many memories
with them that they forget about the presents under
the tree.
So movies, loud Christmas music and cookies lots of
Trevin's cookies hes so good at them now.
We have started our basket's already with more
vigor than last. Somehow they too have picked up my
difference in outlooks and they just keep coming up with
more things to bake and put in them.
I have shared so many of the precious blogs with them.
Its a very special child who gets empathy at such a young
age. They both have been so precious about giving of
themselves and their time.
They are teenagers that alone is a miracle.

I went on a church related trip to the beautiful country of Belize.
It was one of the high lights in my life so far. The people
were amazing. What I took away from there was life
altering.
With saying that, I cant wait to take the boys on the next
trip. I think every child needs the experience of volunteering
their time. It will be awesome to see their world open up around
them to giving if only it is with their time.